It has taken me a very long time to accept that some of the people I love are so very differnt than I am. Still, I suppose we have it easy. If this was the Civil War we'd be in opposing armies, pointing weapons at each other. As it is these days, we are in different political parties, we enjoy different things.
It could honestly be said that we don't like each other very much, if at all. That was the insight for me, loving people that I don't like. It gets me thinking though...what do I really know about them? What do they know about me?
Real love continues over time and distance, but we change. We become what we wanted to be, or not. We find God in a meaningful way, we lose our simple definitions about who we are and what the purpose of life is. Our bodies impact our activities, we stop drinking or we still party like teenagers, these things change us in definable ways.
How do we know we still love them in view of all this overwhelming and sometimes argumentative circumstances? Well, I'd still give them a kidney, lend them money and that's more love than some people have for their current spouses.
Sunday, November 16, 2014
Sunday, November 9, 2014
If I Had Only Known
So many of my early decisions were made by default. Unable to get enough perspective, and always so desperate, I lived my life like a pinball, just trying not to go down the tube. I did have goals and dreams, but living them-well, that I didn't do so well. Still, I lived an absolutely amazing life!
The people I met, stars and presidents, musicians, and all kinds of hard working folks who called me a friend. If I had known then what I know now, I would have kept in touch with very many of these people, who brought my life such richness. Know I still love you, even if it takes a minute for me to recall your name...sometimes it takes me a minute to recall my own :)
If I had only known, I would have stopped holding myself back. That will surprise the people who thought I already was quite out there-at times, I was, I certainly was. What I mean, is doubting myself, my value, my worth and what I had to contribute. Maybe, that's wisdom talking? I realized it later, but it is the point of everything.
The people I met, stars and presidents, musicians, and all kinds of hard working folks who called me a friend. If I had known then what I know now, I would have kept in touch with very many of these people, who brought my life such richness. Know I still love you, even if it takes a minute for me to recall your name...sometimes it takes me a minute to recall my own :)
If I had only known, I would have stopped holding myself back. That will surprise the people who thought I already was quite out there-at times, I was, I certainly was. What I mean, is doubting myself, my value, my worth and what I had to contribute. Maybe, that's wisdom talking? I realized it later, but it is the point of everything.
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