On the Verge of Winter

It's hard to believe it will be snowing inside of a month, but I know it will.  Hard to believe because this autumn has been so beautiful, as was the summer before it.  I've spent all of this time alone, or mostly alone. No trips, no visitors, just me...healing a little at a time and letting things lay down inside me.  It was time that I needed, and peace.

It's hard to explain the value and virtue of solitude to someone from a large family.  I doubt that I ever needed it as desperately as I needed it these past months. Time to cobble myself together, time to realize that my life is my choice and although my choices impact people, even people that I love, it is my choice to make.  This hasn't been easy for me, I have always taken care of others, but even that is falling away. I am finally learning to take care of myself. I am a novice, but I am also a good student. I will learn. I will grow.