Quite recently, I realized that I really do prefer a drama free life, and to a certain extent I have achieved that. Certainly, I have had my traumas but I am convinced that a trauma doesn't have to become a drama. It's a working theory at this point, but I like it just the same.
Among other things, I have found parts of myself reemerging in small ways like, my love of power tools. Sanding my picnic table with my Makita sander is therapeutic in some measurable way. I don't make tremendous progress, but that doesn't really matter. What matters is that I feel able. I like that feeling so I'll probably be sanding some more.
My former husband taught me how to use a power sander, he wouldn't let me do it-but he showed me how. It came in handy today as I prepare the redwood table to be reassembled after all this time. I look forward to eating at it sometime in the next few weeks. It's not a big job, but I don't have any reason to press myself in such hot weather. It'll get done.
While I was sanding, and watching the beauty of the natural redwood reappear from beneath the weathered surface, I found myself rewriting my Fluffy book inside my head and I have decided that it is safe for me to approach that project that went up in smoke. I guess I am over it, for all intensive purposes. It feels good for that to be part of my past, and not part of my present.
I have decided that I really won't be maintaining this blog anymore...I can't say that I'll never post, it's just that while I was traveling it was important to me that people were able to find out what I was up to rather than worrying about what was going on with me. Near as I can tell, I have one reader in the United States and the rest are in other parts of the world. This is interesting in it's own right, but since I have no idea why people in Denmark and Russia want to read my blog while my family and friends do not, I don't really feel compelled to post on any sort of a regular basis, especially since no one posts any comments at all and I am getting busy with other things, finally.
It is good for me to have other things going on in my life. I hope that you do too. If you'd like to share them with me, please do. I can be reached at goodhobbits@comcast.com. I would really enjoy talking with you so don't be shy, even if it is an English lesson, after all, I am a teacher. Once a teacher, always a teacher :D
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